The Right Choices

January 24, 2010 - One Response

I chose Nick.

There, I said it. I broke up with Wade on Dec. 30th. Nick asked me out at midnight on New Years. Im happy now (:

I’m sorry I haven’t really had time to post, I’ve been ridiculously busy with school.

I just got done watching Teen Mom, can’t wait until the finale (:

I also like the shows The Buried Life and My Life as Liz (both on MTV). The Buried Life is very inspiring, and my life as liz is very funny and good.

Chelsie and I have gotten way closer on account of very personal reasons, too personal to post on here lol.

Well i gotta get off the computer, goodnight (:

Love Songs, Love Triangles, Lovesick.

December 30, 2009 - One Response

Two is Better than One- Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Lets really break down this song, shall we?

“You came into my life and I thought ‘hey, you know, this could be something’ “

Ever since I layed eyes on Nick  and really looked at him, the first day of seventh grade, he’s been on my mind.

“Maybe its true, that I can’t live without you”

No matter what he says or does to hurt me, I keep coming back. I forgive him and move on, only to be hurt again. He’s like a magnet.

“There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life, and you’ve already got me coming undone.”

I’m only 13 years (and three quarters) old and I’ve already fallen completely in love with him. I don’t think I’ll ever honestly get over him. Sure, I did for about a week with Wade, but then I started talking to Nick again. Hell, maybe I’ll marry him someday.

“I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste. You make it hard for breathing”

I just love being around him, and his sense of humor, and his enthusiasm. I also remember his kisses, and how gentle and loving they were.

” ‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay”

I think about him a million times a day, and when I’m afraid or sad, he makes me feel safe.

“Two, is better than one”

Two is better than one ❤

So with that being said, I’m going to talk to Wade tonight. Probably going to break up with him, considering its not right to lead him on anyhow.

Guhh.

Happy New Years everyone! Hope you all had a better Christmas than I did. P.S- Remember Mark and Michelle, my brother and sister in law? Well Michelle is pregnant!!! 😀 !

Happy holidays, my loves (:

December 9, 2009 - Leave a Response

Its that wonderful time of year again, when everyone just seems a little happier, jollier if you will. I love Christmas (:

Which brings me to a GIANT announcement!

IM GETTING A GIBSON ACOUSTIC GUITAR! EEP!!

I saw it in my parents basement and i think its for me because i asked for one and my bro already has a guitar so… yeah lol.

Nick is planning on teaching me o.o but that doesnt really mean much considering I dont like him anymore, I have wade (:

Anywhooo… I guess I’ll talk to you sometime before/after Christmas. ILY!

“No matter what you believe in, spread the love this season” -Christofer Drew ❤

Not. Single. ♥

November 26, 2009 - Leave a Response

Yup, thats right, I’ve finally found someone after 3 months of moping around because of Nick…

His name’s Wade :3 He’s greek and has long brown hair, big light brown eyes, and he’s just adorable. He’s really funny and nice, he opens doors  and cares about me. He makes me happy 🙂

I really hope things work out with us because he’s the only guy I’ve had feelings for this school year, and he helped me get over pretty boy Nick.

Happy Turkey Day everyone! Remember what you’re truly thankful for, because thats what matters most.

 

Spoiler Alert! The Twilight Saga: New Moon!

November 21, 2009 - Leave a Response

I went to see New Moon on opening night with my two best friends. Chels’s aunt rocks my rocks for getting us all advanced tickets.

Okay so about 5 people from school were there, and two teachers o.o

Right when the movie started, like just when it said ‘new moon’ on the screen, me and everyone in the theater screamed 😀

I cried twice, once when Edward left and Bella was wandering the forest calling his named, and another time when she went to Italy and saw him and ran into his arms.

Every single girl SCREAMED when Jacob took off his shirt to put on Bella’s head. He is SOOO SEXY! Like I was freaking out and hyper-ventilating.

Bella and Jacob ALMOST kissed like 3 times in the entire movie, which pissed me off, because hes mine. ALL MINE.

There’s lots of action in the movie. They added some things that weren’t in the book, such as Bella getting on the creepy guy’s motorcycle, and Bella continually emailing Alice at a wrong email address.

I also liked the fight between Edward and the Volturi, and Jacob vs. Paul, hot hot :3

The ending pissed me off though, because Edward was like ‘One condition…marry me.’ then Bella gasped, and the screen went black. I’m like WTH!!!!!! Then I threw things at the screen xD

Well that was my New Moon spoiler, hope you enjoyed it. All in all, it was an amazing movie; the new director didn’t disappoint. Guys will love it too, because there’s perverted humor and action xD

GO SEE NEW MOON!

-Amy

P.S- I think I’m Team Jacob now ❤

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November 17, 2009 - Leave a Response

Sometimes I get so tired,
Just trying to find a place,
To lay my head,
I look up to the sky,
I feel the warmest light comfort me,
I’ve seen the great heights,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shores,
I know there’s something,
I know there’s something more.
I think we’re all afraid,
That we might be alone,
Alone down here,
We all want to have some faith,
At least that’s true in my case,
To just believe,
I’ve seen the great height,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something,
This world may crumble,
Into the ocean,
It could all end tonight,
I undermined you,
Then try to find you,
My only source of light,
There breathing,
I am,
Breathing,
I am,
Alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something more.

More- Tyrone Wells

Alls unfair in love and war…

October 26, 2009 - Leave a Response

You’d think I’d be smarter than this, but you’re sadly mistaken.

Alright it started, what, a week or so ago? Idk, it feels like a week ago. I’m not sure.

Anyhow, I was hangin out with Janelly like normal right, and then Nick came over. He was being normal towards me (it was the day he and that Alicia chick broke up) and then Janelly had to go in and get something. Well when she left (i was sitting next to him) he kissed me in a suprise attack.

I’m all like 😮 but I kissed him back, then he stopped kissing me and was like ‘This doesn’t mean we’re dating’ and I’m like ‘okay’. So then he kissed me again, then stopped, then he started making out with me.

All this started and ended in about five minutes.

Then I said I had to leave so Janelly made him leave too. Naturally, he walked me home. So he kissed me, then kissed me, then kissed me AGAIN but this time he said…

‘Friends with benefits? Yes? No?’ and my smart self said ‘Yes’. Then we got to the fence right before ours paths went in separate directions. He kissed me goodbye, and I just walked home.

I felt really bad about that, because to me ‘friends with benefits’ means using someone for a physical relationship. I told him I felt like i was being used and that i was only an option and his EXACT words were…

‘Im not using you for kisses, because that sounds retarded. However you are just an option, but that isnt necessarily a bad thing, considering it means you have a chance.’

That somehow changed my mind, so I decided to keep things the way they were. Plus, I got free kisses ^.^

Wellllll…now my story comes to today. I went over Janelly’s and he said he would come over if I came to get him. I told him to meet me halfway, so he did. When he saw me, he gave me a tiny peck on the lips and whispered ‘thats all you get’ and we walked. I was kind of disappointed.

Anyways, when we got to Janelly’s, he was apparently in some kind of asshole mood, because he was pissing me off nonstop, like just talking about things that he normally wouldn’t over texts (other girls and shit like that) but me being the quiet girl I am, didn’t say anything about it.

Then, he ditched Janelly and I for Kim and Nina (hoes.)

Whatever, I don’t even want to talk to him right now, but I know I’ll end up doing it anyways, because self-destroyal is my latest hobby.

:/

‘Give me therapy, I’m a walking travesty, but I’m smiling at everything.’

Pick a side, dumbass.

October 18, 2009 - 17 Responses

Nick seriously has some confusion problems he needs to work on. Like two days ago, we were talking on Playlist…

NICK- Listen to ‘Say Goodbye-Skillet’ NOW and look up the lyrics

ME- can it wait like 5 minutes?

NICK- NOW

ME- okay okay

For those of you who dont know, the chorus goes… Don’t say goodbye/ Cuz I don’t wanna hear those words tonight/ Cuz maybe its not the end for you and i/ and although we knew this time would come for me and you/ Don’t say anything tonight if you’re gonna say goodbye.

ME- what are you trying to say?

NICK- nothing that I’ll admit to right now.

Well, the VERY next day, I saw him at the homecoming game all close with his girlfriend Alicia (who seriously looks retarded, not even joking) and its like ‘oh i can totally tell you miss me -.-‘

Well then later i went off on him and im like

ME- When, if at all, do you plan on admitting what it is you wanted to admit?

NICK- I don’t think at all.

SERIOUSLY MAN?! Ugh. I hate him…

 

 

No, no I don’t.

Anyways, school has been good. The whole school news thing went well. I’ll probably stick with it (: Leigh and I are on it, were FAMOUS!

And as I mentioned earlier, I went to the homecoming game. With jessica. And my city lost, again. We havent won a homecoming game in 11 years dude.

Anywhoooo, thats pretty much it. G’bye.

`amy`

 

 

Christofer Drew…

October 11, 2009 - Leave a Response

Just figured I’d make this because I’m watching a bunch of Nevershoutnever! vids on Youtube. I think I have an addiction…

“Im in trouble, I’m an addict…” xD

So far, my favorite song is First Dance, just because at the end he says “Who wants cookiesssss?” (:

For those of you who DON’T know (so basically all the people who haven’t lived yet) Christofer Drew IS nevershoutnever!, so like a one man band, which is awesome.

If you have never heard of him before, get your ass on youtube RIGHT NOW and look up ‘nevershoutnever!’ because if you don’t…

I will find you.

 

 

 

Haha just kiddin’…sorta.

Stay young <3

October 9, 2009 - Leave a Response

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine