Alls unfair in love and war…
October 26, 2009

You’d think I’d be smarter than this, but you’re sadly mistaken.

Alright it started, what, a week or so ago? Idk, it feels like a week ago. I’m not sure.

Anyhow, I was hangin out with Janelly like normal right, and then Nick came over. He was being normal towards me (it was the day he and that Alicia chick broke up) and then Janelly had to go in and get something. Well when she left (i was sitting next to him) he kissed me in a suprise attack.

I’m all like 😮 but I kissed him back, then he stopped kissing me and was like ‘This doesn’t mean we’re dating’ and I’m like ‘okay’. So then he kissed me again, then stopped, then he started making out with me.

All this started and ended in about five minutes.

Then I said I had to leave so Janelly made him leave too. Naturally, he walked me home. So he kissed me, then kissed me, then kissed me AGAIN but this time he said…

‘Friends with benefits? Yes? No?’ and my smart self said ‘Yes’. Then we got to the fence right before ours paths went in separate directions. He kissed me goodbye, and I just walked home.

I felt really bad about that, because to me ‘friends with benefits’ means using someone for a physical relationship. I told him I felt like i was being used and that i was only an option and his EXACT words were…

‘Im not using you for kisses, because that sounds retarded. However you are just an option, but that isnt necessarily a bad thing, considering it means you have a chance.’

That somehow changed my mind, so I decided to keep things the way they were. Plus, I got free kisses ^.^

Wellllll…now my story comes to today. I went over Janelly’s and he said he would come over if I came to get him. I told him to meet me halfway, so he did. When he saw me, he gave me a tiny peck on the lips and whispered ‘thats all you get’ and we walked. I was kind of disappointed.

Anyways, when we got to Janelly’s, he was apparently in some kind of asshole mood, because he was pissing me off nonstop, like just talking about things that he normally wouldn’t over texts (other girls and shit like that) but me being the quiet girl I am, didn’t say anything about it.

Then, he ditched Janelly and I for Kim and Nina (hoes.)

Whatever, I don’t even want to talk to him right now, but I know I’ll end up doing it anyways, because self-destroyal is my latest hobby.

:/

‘Give me therapy, I’m a walking travesty, but I’m smiling at everything.’

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Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.

Updates on…EVERYTHING -insert theme music here-
July 28, 2009

Okay I shall now update you on every single solitary aspect of my 13 year old life.

ME- I’m doing pretty good. Just got done scratching my arm *crowd stares in total amazement* I woke up about an hour ago. Woke up originally at 9 to go rollerblade with jessica but her back hurts so were going to change that to tomoro.

Nick- Nick’s dad just came back after 3 weeks of being on the road for work, idk how he feels about that though. His phone is kind of messed up at the moment because he geniusly texted right when he got out of the shower and his hands were wet.

Blake (sanity)- Blake had knee surgery a while ago, and recently he fell at Target because someone decided to paint the ground and he slipped on his krutches. Wth? So we are planning to sue target in the near future (I called all the converse stuff :])

Chelsie- Her lice is gone (finally) and she’s “taking a break” from her man, Jesseth, for a while. We might go to our city’s festival together 😀

Yanesa- Yanesa has been good. She spent the night on the 17th and we talked for the whole night. She also “took a break” from her man, Antoine.

Me playing keyboard- I’ve learned these songs: For Elise, Right Here Waiting for You, Welcome to the Black Parade, the intro to It Ends Tonight. I’m doing good :]

School- As far as I know, school starts september 9th. Still not sure what cluster I’m in though. Can’t wait for 8th grade.

Thats pretty much it I think lol. If I think of more, I’ll edit this later.

Gots some shexy specs :]
July 22, 2009

Chhyeaaaa I got my glasses. Currently wearing them. Heres what people are saying:

“You look smarter”-Adam (brother)

“You look sophisticated”-Paul (mom’s friend)

“They look good on you”-Nick (boyfriend, duh)

“I wish you got Urkel glasses”-Yanesa (bestie)

“Nerd.” -Blake (we unfortunately all know who blake is, but for those who don’t, hes my best friend aka Sanity)

So most people like them lol. I can see…

-mystified voice- Everythings so clear now…

Well I’ll probably post again like Friday

 

PEACEEEE`zzz

`amy`

What I did THIS week :]]
July 16, 2009

Okay…this week was jam packed with a bunch of stuff lolz.

Saturday– Went to the mall with jenna and nicole, I got skinnies from Pac Sun and 2 cool shirts.

Sunday– Went to church in the morning then a bonfire in the evening. Fun fun.

Monday– Monday…did nothing in the morning, but at like 3, Yanesa came over, following her were Hanna and Jordan (theyre twins FYI, they stick together xD) and I played with my satanic teddy bear. Nick ended up coming over too, then following him were Brenden, Blake, Craig, and Travis. Yanesa and H&J fled to the backyard, leaving me to fend for myself with the pack of guys. I eventually got them to leave, and then everyone was in the front.

Tuesday-Went for an eye exam 😦 I’m nearsighted in both eyes actually but my right eye is really bad, my left eye isn’t too bad. I picked out some purple glasses 🙂

candies_c_kristinaMy glasses ^^

Snazzy huh? x]

Wednesday– Had an ortho appointment, got my braces colors changed to pink 🙂 Yanesa came over later, and we had a whipped cream/hose fight 🙂 very fun.

ThursdayToday is mine and Nicks 7 month anniversay, so he’s supposed to come over. Of course we’ll have nothing to do, but its nice to see him anyways.

Friday– Supposedly Yanesa is spending the night/I’m spending the night there, so that will be funnn.

In other news…

UPLOADED MORE VIDEOS! http://youtube.com/user/Aew3796

I uploaded five videos. One has a satanic teddy bear, one has chelsie playing with helium, one has me playing with helium, another is of Relay For Life, another is me playing keyboard.

Chelsie updateShe got out of the hospital, but her life sucks these days dude, she fainted a couple days ago and had to go back to the doctors. Idk what they found, didn’t ask her. She also found out she has lice, because she shared her hairbrush with everyone at her birthday party which I couldn’t go to (kinda glad I didn’t now.) Now she can’t go to her boyfriend’s birthday party, who she hasn’t seen in like a month. I feel so bad for her.  

Sooo…I’ll talk to you laterrr. Buh bye 🙂

 

P.S- Have an account on http://stardoll.com ? So do I! The only website I’m “allowed” to go on. Anyways, my account name is Fuzzypanda96 (don’t ask xD). If you add me as a friend, mention this site in the request and I’ll give you a superstar gift 🙂 See how nice I am xD?

What I did this week :)
July 10, 2009

Monday– Nothing for the first part of the day, later Yanesa came over and me and her cousins went to Dairy Queen :]

Tuesday– I went to the doctors for a physical, found out I need glasses or contacts. Stupid right eye is nearsighted. Then I finally got the rollerblades I’ve been bugging my mom about for two weeks. Then I went over Jessica’s and we walked to Taco Bell and then back to her house. 

Wednesday-At 9am Jessica and I went rollerblading for some excercise. At 11 we went to visit Nick and talked on his porch (me and him kissed and made out a little :]) while Jessica used my phone to text Alejandro. Then at 11:30am Jessica had to go and I went back home, took a shower, and rested a while until Yanesa, Hanna, Jordan, and Gabby came over. Fun fun.

Thursday- Jessica couldnt go rollerblading so I woke up at 9 for nothing. I talked to Nick until like 2 then I watched the original Buffy the Vampire Slayer movie. Then Yanesa, Brenden, and Blake came over. We hung out and then it was just me and the twins.

Thats what I did this week 🙂

Chelsie is in the hospital because supposedly her aunt put rat poison in her food and now she can’t keep any food down. She hasn’t eaten for a week 😥 I’m worried about her. Shes also grounded in the hospital because at her birthday party she had a cake fight…I think her parents hate her.

Anywhooo…Life is good :]

Luff yew, buh bye.

~amy

1 month til skool starts?! WTFH
August 5, 2008

omg! one effing month left?! where has it all gone?!

srry i havent been on this summer, ive been having 2 much fun tehe…

anyways i should make this short so no one catches me on here lol.

well ilya (i luv u all) and i gtg! baii!!!!!

~here 2 help & eat cheez!

~amy~ ♥ 😀

P.S-       AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! uhh… me n blake broke up (hes a bastard now) and WAFFLES I WILL GET GARY TO COME N RAPE U IF U DONT EMAIL MEH!!!

I was grounded…
July 22, 2008

hola ppl!! srry i havent been on the computer 4 like ever. my dad grounded me frmthe computer becuz he found out i was going on myspace…tehe. but i still have my fone tht gets internet. well rite now im on the comp @ jessica A.’s house. well anyways im havin an awesome summer n i hope u guys r too. well not really…tehe jk. chicago was awesome i had the best time EVA! n im goin out wit blake (sanity) again lol.

well i should probably end this be4 jessica gets pissed off…and she took my phone. dammit…

~here 2 help & eat cheez! 😀 ♥