Freshman Year: One Trimester Down, Two to Go
December 3, 2010

Excuses, excuses, I know..

I probably wouldn’t be typing this if I wasn’t sick and home from school today.. High school has been going well, for those interested. I enjoyed the classes I had, but as for the teachers, they are a whole different story.

A lot of the teachers are in it solely for the money. One teacher I had told my friend to “shut the hell up” (I swear, she said that) and “Why should I stay after to help students? I don’t get paid for it” She’s retiring in a couple years, and lets just say, no one will miss her. When one of her former students is her doctor, and she’s having some kind of major surgery, she’ll be sorry…

Thankfully, though, there’s that small handful of teachers left that actually care about their students and the kind of education they get, the teachers that ask how you’re doing and genuinely care, who give great advice and feel like a second mom ♥

I haven’t made too many new friends, more-so acquaintences and people I’ll talk to in class. My current classes are decent so far, its hard to really tell since the second trimester just started.

Blah. Freshmen year is a drag.

In my spare time, I hang out with Nick (boyfriend of two-ish years), go to church, and try to spend time with friends..well..the friends I haven’t lost :/ but I’m not going to burden anyone with that story.

I feel like life is becoming a cycle..In the summer, everything drifts along, and towards the end of it, a lot takes a turn for the worst. In the fall, I lose track of my identity and feel pretty useless. In the winter, things perk up, and relationships rebuild, and everything seems to have a spark to it. Then, in spring, everything is light and happy and busy.

Hopefully this isn’t how it will always be.

Right now, I’ve taken an interest in acting, writing, and cooking. Maybe when I get my braces off, I’ll try modeling. The worst they can say is no, right? I have a few homecoming pictures, I’ll put those up eventually 🙂

Well, this is a pretty long post and I hope you enjoyed it at least a little bit, leave comments, questions, or advice, and I’ll always reply. Promise 🙂

Summer Wishes.. (:
June 18, 2010

Okay, let me begin by saying..

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. Yep, thats right baby. Yours truly is now part of the incoming freshman class, aka Class of 2014. I’m excited and terrified and happy and sad all at the same time..

  • Excited- I’m usually up for trying new things, so this will be the best four years of my life, SO FAR.
  • Terrified- Bigger school, stricter teachers, older kids. A lot of sophomores don’t like me.. 🙂
  • Happy- One step closer to being an adult, on my own, in the land of opportunity.
  • Sad- Old friends aren’t as close, new friends are already moving. Its losing in order to gain.

So thats what I’m anticipating from high school so far. But I can’t knock it til I try it, right?

As for summer, my fears are simple. Nick and I will drift apart, I will waste my summer doing nothing all day, I’ll end it on a bad note, etc. I just want this to be the opposite of last year. It started out basically the same as last year, as soon as the clock hit 11:39 I started to cry. The only difference was that we were at the park, and it wasn’t raining. No rain=good omen (:

The skies were blue and the future was bright, so Nick, Leigh, Josh, random people, and I all set out to go to lunch. That was kind of fun, but I’m generally not a ”big group” kind of girl, I’m at my happiest when theres four or five people lol. At the end of the day, it was just me, Nick, Leigh and Josh. We just walked around aimlessly, giving me tan lines on my forehead and arms and chest >.<

So when Nick walked me home, I made him promise that the summer wouldn’t change us. He looked me straight in the eye and said “I swear” and he can’t lie straight to my face so that gave me hope. Lets just hope he sticks to his word, and that the summer before high school will be the best one of my life.

“Our fingerprints don’t fade from the lives we touch” ❤ Leigh, Chelsie, Nick, Josh, Joel, Janelly, Emelina, Jorden, Laura, Lauren, Ciara, Jasmen, Dakota, Jillian, J, Cassie, Madison T, etc= some of the many people who I don’t want to forget, ever.

(: Happy February
February 2, 2010

Herlo (:

I can’t believe its already February. What about you? Craziness..

It’s February 1st, therefore Nick and I have been together a month now (: He asked me out at midnight on New Year’s. Did I mention that? I think I did. I dunno lol.

Chelsie, Leigh, and I hung out on Friday. We went to a coney island and Chels stole all the jelly from our table. Then she threw the packets at cars. It hit this one lady’s car and she got MAD. She threatened to jump Chels lmfaoo. Good times!

Then we had to drop Chels off at the elementary school a few blocks over since her grandma didn’t know how to get to Leigh’s. Leigh and I stayed at the playground for almost an hour.

 I called Nick and told him I didn’t feel safe, being alone like that at a playground at night. He actually came (: it was so nice.

Anyways, hopefully February will be good. I started Gym and Science extension today. I hope I don’t get raped in Gym class by the creepy teacher that Brandie is supposed to protect me from xDD

Nick’s best friend Nina switched from 7th to 8th grade. I hope she doesn’t cause problems for our relationship..

-sigh-

Peace!

 

Stay young <3
October 9, 2009

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine

Two is Better Than One <33
September 21, 2009

Well…I have some good news, some sort of sad news, and some more sad news.

Ill tell you the  good news first ^^

Sam and Nick broke up! Yes! Today! She told him she doesnt love him anymore, stupid hoe. What I wouldnt give to pound her stupid face in…

Anyways, heres the sad news. I dont think were going to get back together. I mean, you cant really say never, because anything is possible. But the odds are against us. So yeah, i guess we’ll remain friends forever.

And the moderately sad news, Chelsie and Cullen broke up :[ Cullen said it was because they never saw eachother, which i guess is understandable.

-sigh- teenage love is difficult. very very difficult.

In other news, heres my music CD wishlist for this fall…

Cant Stop Wont Stop- The Maine

Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls

Boys Like Girls

and…Avril Lavigne’s new CD, not sure what its called…

Also, Im saving up to rent an acoustic guitar. So far the only person Ive told is Wade, and thats it. I want to keep it a secret to I can surprise people :] Well…I guess its not really a secret anymore, since I just put it on the internet…Oh well ^.^

Luff yew ❤

P.S- You MUST listen to ‘Two is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls’ Its such a good song, but its sad.

First day of school…The Review.
September 9, 2009

Okay, Im  kinda sad. Here’s why it was bad…

1. My old TEACHERS asked what happened with Nick.

2. I have like three classes with Nick.

3. I dont have lunch with any of my friends.

4. It was humid, so my hair went POOF!

5. Some one asked if Nick got me PREGNANT!!!!

6. Chelsie WOULDVE been in my cluster if she hadnt moved!!! WAHHH!!! She wouldve been in my english class. They called out her name during attendance.

Those are the main reasons. But there were some positive things.

1. I got computer class in my first semester.

2. A lot of my friends are in some of my classes.

3. I get to see Nick every day, whether he wants to or not xD

4. Not too many people asked about him.

5. I didnt trip like last year :]

Well all in all, it was okay. Itll probably be better tomorrow. Or worse…

-sniff-

</3 Last day of Summer. Tribute.
September 8, 2009

I stare out into the horizon as the waves break against the shore. As if in a rush, it ends. The innocence. The love. The fun. The freedom. Gone, like a breeze. Sand in our hands, hard to hold onto, slipping through our fingers slowly. The wind breaks across my face as realization kicks in. We can’t hold onto anything anymore, nothing. Not the innocence. The love. The fun. The freedom. Nothing.

Thats my poem about summer ending, sad huh? Well yeah. Chelsie actually started school today. Im so worried about her right now its not even funny. If shes not okay, ill like freak out. Hm.

Well…Hmm. I guess that about it. The last day of summer. To end the suckiest of summers, its raining. The first day of summer it was raining too. A sign? I hope not.

 

Some things never change <3
August 23, 2009

Love THEM!!!Click it! Its (from left to right) Leigh, Chelsie, and me 😀 I made that for them.

W00t w00t 😀

I spent the night at leighs with chelsie last night. I missed them both so much.

Stuck in a comfortable pattern…Eh.
August 20, 2009

Im pretty much over the whole breakup issue, like it doesnt bother me anymore, I’m just not over him, like I cant stop thinking about him. I’ll get over it eventually though…always do -sigh-.

My life is getting boring, my friends feel that Im sane and emotionally stable enough to be left alone by now. So thats what theyre doing -_-. Theyre moving on with their busy lives while I sit at home, waiting for something interesting to happen.

I cant wait for school. Thats what I need in my life, a routine that keeps me occupied, not stuck in my room listening to music all day. School for me starts September 9th. Yay :] 3 weeks exactly.

I kinda want to join track in 8th grade, for like a hobby. A lot of my friends were in track in 7th grade, and I went to all of the at-home meets because Nick was on the team, and it looked like fun. Plus, Im kinda fast :] and my family will get off my back about playing sports.

Well I’m bored…Lets do a profile thingy xD

Time- 9:28pm EST on Aug 19th.

Eating- Nothing, well…air.

Drinking- Nothing.

Listening to- My Paper Heart- All American Rejects

Wearing- Blue tee shirt, Adidas shorts.

Feeling- Bored, exhausted, content.

Loving- Nick kinda, and my friends :] oh, and music.

Hating-Hmm…Nothing I can think of atm.

Wanting- Someone to text/IM/call/fall in love with -sheepish grin-, something to drink.

-Amy |:D|

P.S- Right after I typed the ‘wanting’ thing, someone texted me xD Nick best friend, Jesseth.  That was cool 😀

P.S.S- NOW NICKS IMING ME AND HE HASNT EVEN TALKED TO ME IN 2 WEEKS!!! WTH!!!!!! -tries to slow pounding heart-