The Right Choices
January 24, 2010

I chose Nick.

There, I said it. I broke up with Wade on Dec. 30th. Nick asked me out at midnight on New Years. Im happy now (:

I’m sorry I haven’t really had time to post, I’ve been ridiculously busy with school.

I just got done watching Teen Mom, can’t wait until the finale (:

I also like the shows The Buried Life and My Life as Liz (both on MTV). The Buried Life is very inspiring, and my life as liz is very funny and good.

Chelsie and I have gotten way closer on account of very personal reasons, too personal to post on here lol.

Well i gotta get off the computer, goodnight (:

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Love Songs, Love Triangles, Lovesick.
December 30, 2009

Two is Better than One- Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Lets really break down this song, shall we?

“You came into my life and I thought ‘hey, you know, this could be something’ “

Ever since I layed eyes on Nick  and really looked at him, the first day of seventh grade, he’s been on my mind.

“Maybe its true, that I can’t live without you”

No matter what he says or does to hurt me, I keep coming back. I forgive him and move on, only to be hurt again. He’s like a magnet.

“There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life, and you’ve already got me coming undone.”

I’m only 13 years (and three quarters) old and I’ve already fallen completely in love with him. I don’t think I’ll ever honestly get over him. Sure, I did for about a week with Wade, but then I started talking to Nick again. Hell, maybe I’ll marry him someday.

“I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste. You make it hard for breathing”

I just love being around him, and his sense of humor, and his enthusiasm. I also remember his kisses, and how gentle and loving they were.

” ‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay”

I think about him a million times a day, and when I’m afraid or sad, he makes me feel safe.

“Two, is better than one”

Two is better than one ❤

So with that being said, I’m going to talk to Wade tonight. Probably going to break up with him, considering its not right to lead him on anyhow.

Guhh.

Happy New Years everyone! Hope you all had a better Christmas than I did. P.S- Remember Mark and Michelle, my brother and sister in law? Well Michelle is pregnant!!! 😀 !

More
November 17, 2009

Sometimes I get so tired,
Just trying to find a place,
To lay my head,
I look up to the sky,
I feel the warmest light comfort me,
I’ve seen the great heights,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shores,
I know there’s something,
I know there’s something more.
I think we’re all afraid,
That we might be alone,
Alone down here,
We all want to have some faith,
At least that’s true in my case,
To just believe,
I’ve seen the great height,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something,
This world may crumble,
Into the ocean,
It could all end tonight,
I undermined you,
Then try to find you,
My only source of light,
There breathing,
I am,
Breathing,
I am,
Alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something more.

More- Tyrone Wells

Its that time of year again…
September 26, 2009

Im sick. Again. I never fail to get sick every single fall. Seriously. Right now my head hurts, my nose is stuffy, and my throat hurts.

Im chewing gum, and it sort of helps. Stupid fucking oranges and vitamins didnt even fucking help. I literally ate an orange, drank that Airborne shit thats supposed to help your immune system, took sooo many vitamins and i STILL got sick!! Tell me how the fuck that works. Its unfair, very very very unfair.

No, I dont have the swine flu.

Anyways, Nick and I aren’t really making progress. Its not looking good.

“Its the same old story, everyone knows. One heart holding on, one letting go.”

-sniffs- I should reread the Twilight saga tomoro, since Im not going anywhere. I wanted to do a bunch of stuff this weekend too. UGHHH!!!

In other news…

I signed up to be on the ‘Dragon Report’ (my schools news broadcast thing). I still have to audition next Thursday. Im excitedddd 😀

Ill be on NJHS this year again 😀 Yayyy!

-cough- Well Im exhausted. Goodnight.

-amy-

Two is Better Than One <33
September 21, 2009

Well…I have some good news, some sort of sad news, and some more sad news.

Ill tell you the  good news first ^^

Sam and Nick broke up! Yes! Today! She told him she doesnt love him anymore, stupid hoe. What I wouldnt give to pound her stupid face in…

Anyways, heres the sad news. I dont think were going to get back together. I mean, you cant really say never, because anything is possible. But the odds are against us. So yeah, i guess we’ll remain friends forever.

And the moderately sad news, Chelsie and Cullen broke up :[ Cullen said it was because they never saw eachother, which i guess is understandable.

-sigh- teenage love is difficult. very very difficult.

In other news, heres my music CD wishlist for this fall…

Cant Stop Wont Stop- The Maine

Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls

Boys Like Girls

and…Avril Lavigne’s new CD, not sure what its called…

Also, Im saving up to rent an acoustic guitar. So far the only person Ive told is Wade, and thats it. I want to keep it a secret to I can surprise people :] Well…I guess its not really a secret anymore, since I just put it on the internet…Oh well ^.^

Luff yew ❤

P.S- You MUST listen to ‘Two is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls’ Its such a good song, but its sad.

Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.