Freshman Year: One Trimester Down, Two to Go
December 3, 2010

Excuses, excuses, I know..

I probably wouldn’t be typing this if I wasn’t sick and home from school today.. High school has been going well, for those interested. I enjoyed the classes I had, but as for the teachers, they are a whole different story.

A lot of the teachers are in it solely for the money. One teacher I had told my friend to “shut the hell up” (I swear, she said that) and “Why should I stay after to help students? I don’t get paid for it” She’s retiring in a couple years, and lets just say, no one will miss her. When one of her former students is her doctor, and she’s having some kind of major surgery, she’ll be sorry…

Thankfully, though, there’s that small handful of teachers left that actually care about their students and the kind of education they get, the teachers that ask how you’re doing and genuinely care, who give great advice and feel like a second mom ♥

I haven’t made too many new friends, more-so acquaintences and people I’ll talk to in class. My current classes are decent so far, its hard to really tell since the second trimester just started.

Blah. Freshmen year is a drag.

In my spare time, I hang out with Nick (boyfriend of two-ish years), go to church, and try to spend time with friends..well..the friends I haven’t lost :/ but I’m not going to burden anyone with that story.

I feel like life is becoming a cycle..In the summer, everything drifts along, and towards the end of it, a lot takes a turn for the worst. In the fall, I lose track of my identity and feel pretty useless. In the winter, things perk up, and relationships rebuild, and everything seems to have a spark to it. Then, in spring, everything is light and happy and busy.

Hopefully this isn’t how it will always be.

Right now, I’ve taken an interest in acting, writing, and cooking. Maybe when I get my braces off, I’ll try modeling. The worst they can say is no, right? I have a few homecoming pictures, I’ll put those up eventually 🙂

Well, this is a pretty long post and I hope you enjoyed it at least a little bit, leave comments, questions, or advice, and I’ll always reply. Promise 🙂

s.u.m.m.e.r.2.0.1.0
July 12, 2010

First summer of the decade and so far its been fantastic! I hope you’re able to say the same.

Okay first off, I’m absolutely loving all the free time and extra sleep and just everything. I feel so chill and relaxed and stress free, its amazing. Everyone just seems a lot happier, and the positive energy feels nice..

I’ve gotten a lot of firsts this summer, like meeting my first crossdresser, going to a wave pool, swimming with nick, etc. And its all been really fun, more of my plans include..

  • Going to my aunt’s cabin
  • Going to Chicago when my baby niece/nephew is born
  • Going to my city’s carnival
  • Putting a desk in my room/getting a new phone

So I’m sort of a busy bee, but I like being able to do what I please, school is so stressful >.<

Well I’m going to go do something xD I love you guys! Ttfn.

Summer Wishes.. (:
June 18, 2010

Okay, let me begin by saying..

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. Yep, thats right baby. Yours truly is now part of the incoming freshman class, aka Class of 2014. I’m excited and terrified and happy and sad all at the same time..

  • Excited- I’m usually up for trying new things, so this will be the best four years of my life, SO FAR.
  • Terrified- Bigger school, stricter teachers, older kids. A lot of sophomores don’t like me.. 🙂
  • Happy- One step closer to being an adult, on my own, in the land of opportunity.
  • Sad- Old friends aren’t as close, new friends are already moving. Its losing in order to gain.

So thats what I’m anticipating from high school so far. But I can’t knock it til I try it, right?

As for summer, my fears are simple. Nick and I will drift apart, I will waste my summer doing nothing all day, I’ll end it on a bad note, etc. I just want this to be the opposite of last year. It started out basically the same as last year, as soon as the clock hit 11:39 I started to cry. The only difference was that we were at the park, and it wasn’t raining. No rain=good omen (:

The skies were blue and the future was bright, so Nick, Leigh, Josh, random people, and I all set out to go to lunch. That was kind of fun, but I’m generally not a ”big group” kind of girl, I’m at my happiest when theres four or five people lol. At the end of the day, it was just me, Nick, Leigh and Josh. We just walked around aimlessly, giving me tan lines on my forehead and arms and chest >.<

So when Nick walked me home, I made him promise that the summer wouldn’t change us. He looked me straight in the eye and said “I swear” and he can’t lie straight to my face so that gave me hope. Lets just hope he sticks to his word, and that the summer before high school will be the best one of my life.

“Our fingerprints don’t fade from the lives we touch” ❤ Leigh, Chelsie, Nick, Josh, Joel, Janelly, Emelina, Jorden, Laura, Lauren, Ciara, Jasmen, Dakota, Jillian, J, Cassie, Madison T, etc= some of the many people who I don’t want to forget, ever.

Stay young <3
October 9, 2009

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!!!
September 1, 2009

WAHH!!!! Yes, its that time of year once again. September 1st. Basically the end of the summer. This saddens me deeply and I’m sure it saddens you.

Sure, this summer SUCKED ASS but still, it was summer none the less. I still had a great time with my friends. Inside jokes and all nighters and crazy pool noodle wars and barfing from all the carnival food and upside down rides. I guess the good outweighed the bad in some ways.

Anyways, I’m still super excited about going into EIGHTH GRADE!!! W00t!!

Can you believe it? It seems like I started this blog a week ago, not two years. Ive matured in many ways since I’ve been on here, and its just weird to think about it. After this year, I’ll be in high school. 4 years after that, I’ll be in college. And I STILL have no idea what im gunna do with my life…Oh god.

IN OTHER NEWS….

IM BRITISH!!!! I learned this yesterday!! My dad told me. I asked what nationalities I am, he said I’m  Polish, British, Dutch, German, and Hungarian. That explains my last name, which is quite british xD I feel fancy with my superior british self :]]

Soooo….Thats pretty much it. Nick and I are desperately trying to remain friends, and itd be going quite well except for the fact that nick’s new girlfriend Sam, well, hates my guts and the ground I walk on xDDDD She thinks Im trying to steal back her man xD (excuse me, by the popular vote, he still is my man. No one I know likes Sam ^_^…MINE!!!) Sooo we have to sneak around and stuff. Like for now we only talk on the computer and late at night :] Romantic isnt it xDDD?

Well I gtg for now, Im gunna get my hair cut. Suggestions :]? Luff yew all.

-Amy was here-