Changes to the Blog!
August 9, 2010

Okay so wordpress recently came out with a button that you can stick on the end of each post and have people rate it. I decided to add the option for posts and comments, because I care what you, the people, have to say (: I would go out for politics with that slogan, but I’m too young..and too honest xD

Please be nice about it!

Also, this doesn’t really have to do with THIS blog, but a friend and I might be making another wordpress with advice for teenage girls on makeup, clothes, advice, and things girls care about. Mainly looks that you can wear everyday, and not get weird looks from people. I’d appreciate your support and hope you’re excited about it! With your help, we can make it big!

I’ll let you know when the site officially launches, until then, keep checking in!

PS- Exactly one month until school starts for me! What about you? Are you excited? Lemme know below!

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November 17, 2009

Sometimes I get so tired,
Just trying to find a place,
To lay my head,
I look up to the sky,
I feel the warmest light comfort me,
I’ve seen the great heights,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shores,
I know there’s something,
I know there’s something more.
I think we’re all afraid,
That we might be alone,
Alone down here,
We all want to have some faith,
At least that’s true in my case,
To just believe,
I’ve seen the great height,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something,
This world may crumble,
Into the ocean,
It could all end tonight,
I undermined you,
Then try to find you,
My only source of light,
There breathing,
I am,
Breathing,
I am,
Alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something more.

More- Tyrone Wells

Alls unfair in love and war…
October 26, 2009

You’d think I’d be smarter than this, but you’re sadly mistaken.

Alright it started, what, a week or so ago? Idk, it feels like a week ago. I’m not sure.

Anyhow, I was hangin out with Janelly like normal right, and then Nick came over. He was being normal towards me (it was the day he and that Alicia chick broke up) and then Janelly had to go in and get something. Well when she left (i was sitting next to him) he kissed me in a suprise attack.

I’m all like 😮 but I kissed him back, then he stopped kissing me and was like ‘This doesn’t mean we’re dating’ and I’m like ‘okay’. So then he kissed me again, then stopped, then he started making out with me.

All this started and ended in about five minutes.

Then I said I had to leave so Janelly made him leave too. Naturally, he walked me home. So he kissed me, then kissed me, then kissed me AGAIN but this time he said…

‘Friends with benefits? Yes? No?’ and my smart self said ‘Yes’. Then we got to the fence right before ours paths went in separate directions. He kissed me goodbye, and I just walked home.

I felt really bad about that, because to me ‘friends with benefits’ means using someone for a physical relationship. I told him I felt like i was being used and that i was only an option and his EXACT words were…

‘Im not using you for kisses, because that sounds retarded. However you are just an option, but that isnt necessarily a bad thing, considering it means you have a chance.’

That somehow changed my mind, so I decided to keep things the way they were. Plus, I got free kisses ^.^

Wellllll…now my story comes to today. I went over Janelly’s and he said he would come over if I came to get him. I told him to meet me halfway, so he did. When he saw me, he gave me a tiny peck on the lips and whispered ‘thats all you get’ and we walked. I was kind of disappointed.

Anyways, when we got to Janelly’s, he was apparently in some kind of asshole mood, because he was pissing me off nonstop, like just talking about things that he normally wouldn’t over texts (other girls and shit like that) but me being the quiet girl I am, didn’t say anything about it.

Then, he ditched Janelly and I for Kim and Nina (hoes.)

Whatever, I don’t even want to talk to him right now, but I know I’ll end up doing it anyways, because self-destroyal is my latest hobby.

:/

‘Give me therapy, I’m a walking travesty, but I’m smiling at everything.’

Stay young <3
October 9, 2009

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!!!
September 1, 2009

WAHH!!!! Yes, its that time of year once again. September 1st. Basically the end of the summer. This saddens me deeply and I’m sure it saddens you.

Sure, this summer SUCKED ASS but still, it was summer none the less. I still had a great time with my friends. Inside jokes and all nighters and crazy pool noodle wars and barfing from all the carnival food and upside down rides. I guess the good outweighed the bad in some ways.

Anyways, I’m still super excited about going into EIGHTH GRADE!!! W00t!!

Can you believe it? It seems like I started this blog a week ago, not two years. Ive matured in many ways since I’ve been on here, and its just weird to think about it. After this year, I’ll be in high school. 4 years after that, I’ll be in college. And I STILL have no idea what im gunna do with my life…Oh god.

IN OTHER NEWS….

IM BRITISH!!!! I learned this yesterday!! My dad told me. I asked what nationalities I am, he said I’m  Polish, British, Dutch, German, and Hungarian. That explains my last name, which is quite british xD I feel fancy with my superior british self :]]

Soooo….Thats pretty much it. Nick and I are desperately trying to remain friends, and itd be going quite well except for the fact that nick’s new girlfriend Sam, well, hates my guts and the ground I walk on xDDDD She thinks Im trying to steal back her man xD (excuse me, by the popular vote, he still is my man. No one I know likes Sam ^_^…MINE!!!) Sooo we have to sneak around and stuff. Like for now we only talk on the computer and late at night :] Romantic isnt it xDDD?

Well I gtg for now, Im gunna get my hair cut. Suggestions :]? Luff yew all.

-Amy was here-

Some things never change <3
August 23, 2009

Love THEM!!!Click it! Its (from left to right) Leigh, Chelsie, and me 😀 I made that for them.

W00t w00t 😀

I spent the night at leighs with chelsie last night. I missed them both so much.

Stuck in a comfortable pattern…Eh.
August 20, 2009

Im pretty much over the whole breakup issue, like it doesnt bother me anymore, I’m just not over him, like I cant stop thinking about him. I’ll get over it eventually though…always do -sigh-.

My life is getting boring, my friends feel that Im sane and emotionally stable enough to be left alone by now. So thats what theyre doing -_-. Theyre moving on with their busy lives while I sit at home, waiting for something interesting to happen.

I cant wait for school. Thats what I need in my life, a routine that keeps me occupied, not stuck in my room listening to music all day. School for me starts September 9th. Yay :] 3 weeks exactly.

I kinda want to join track in 8th grade, for like a hobby. A lot of my friends were in track in 7th grade, and I went to all of the at-home meets because Nick was on the team, and it looked like fun. Plus, Im kinda fast :] and my family will get off my back about playing sports.

Well I’m bored…Lets do a profile thingy xD

Time- 9:28pm EST on Aug 19th.

Eating- Nothing, well…air.

Drinking- Nothing.

Listening to- My Paper Heart- All American Rejects

Wearing- Blue tee shirt, Adidas shorts.

Feeling- Bored, exhausted, content.

Loving- Nick kinda, and my friends :] oh, and music.

Hating-Hmm…Nothing I can think of atm.

Wanting- Someone to text/IM/call/fall in love with -sheepish grin-, something to drink.

-Amy |:D|

P.S- Right after I typed the ‘wanting’ thing, someone texted me xD Nick best friend, Jesseth.  That was cool 😀

P.S.S- NOW NICKS IMING ME AND HE HASNT EVEN TALKED TO ME IN 2 WEEKS!!! WTH!!!!!! -tries to slow pounding heart-

Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.

Life is like a house of mirrors…
May 21, 2009

“Life is like a house of mirrors: sometimes you get confused and lost, but once you find your way, its really easy to figure out.”- Amy (me)

My life has been flowing pretty easily lately. I havent been bored much, too occupied with school, Nick, piano, and writing to notice much.

Tomorrow, one of my two best friends, Chelsie, is coming over. Im taking her to the NJHS induction ceremony. Im in it too. Its gunna be coolio.

May 16th-17th, I participated in Relay For Life. In case you don’t know, Relay For Life, is a 24 hour walk to raise awareness for cancer. I had lots of laughs, and lots of tears. My grandma passed away from breast cancer and my grandpa has a nonspreadble cancer in his ear. It was very moving.

This week at school, its Spirit Week! Today was school colours day, yesterday was neon day (i wore my lime green skinnies) and tomoro is inside out day 😀 awesomeness!

Currently, Nicholas is at a League Meet for track. Hes super fast.

Me and Nick are still together, our 5 month anniversary was May 16th :]

I’ll end this now lol, talk to you laterr, olive juice ;]

~amy wuz hurr~

Heels Over Head ^^
February 17, 2009

Kk back from skool…anywhoooo…

Yesterday we had the day off so tht was fun. I went over my frend jessie’s house while ashley was there. we invited nick over and watched tv til her mom got home.  when her mom did get home, the 4 of us walked to tim hortons and got coffee. THEN we walked to starbucks and got coffee. i was BUZZED. I ran along the freeway with jessie and that was fun. then we went back to jessies and went in her room. me and nick made out laying down on her bed ^^ then we were forced to go to cvs for cookies.

how weird lol. but tht was AWESOME!!!

today was good too. nick came over and gave me my vday gift (a teddybear tht smells like vurt ((his cologne)) ) and i gave him the mints 😀

well im tired. gunna go play keyboard. PEACE!!

~amy wuz hurr~

P.S— Currently obsessed with…

Boys Like Girls (hero/heroine) and eyeliner.