Freshman Year: One Trimester Down, Two to Go
December 3, 2010

Excuses, excuses, I know..

I probably wouldn’t be typing this if I wasn’t sick and home from school today.. High school has been going well, for those interested. I enjoyed the classes I had, but as for the teachers, they are a whole different story.

A lot of the teachers are in it solely for the money. One teacher I had told my friend to “shut the hell up” (I swear, she said that) and “Why should I stay after to help students? I don’t get paid for it” She’s retiring in a couple years, and lets just say, no one will miss her. When one of her former students is her doctor, and she’s having some kind of major surgery, she’ll be sorry…

Thankfully, though, there’s that small handful of teachers left that actually care about their students and the kind of education they get, the teachers that ask how you’re doing and genuinely care, who give great advice and feel like a second mom ♥

I haven’t made too many new friends, more-so acquaintences and people I’ll talk to in class. My current classes are decent so far, its hard to really tell since the second trimester just started.

Blah. Freshmen year is a drag.

In my spare time, I hang out with Nick (boyfriend of two-ish years), go to church, and try to spend time with friends..well..the friends I haven’t lost :/ but I’m not going to burden anyone with that story.

I feel like life is becoming a cycle..In the summer, everything drifts along, and towards the end of it, a lot takes a turn for the worst. In the fall, I lose track of my identity and feel pretty useless. In the winter, things perk up, and relationships rebuild, and everything seems to have a spark to it. Then, in spring, everything is light and happy and busy.

Hopefully this isn’t how it will always be.

Right now, I’ve taken an interest in acting, writing, and cooking. Maybe when I get my braces off, I’ll try modeling. The worst they can say is no, right? I have a few homecoming pictures, I’ll put those up eventually 🙂

Well, this is a pretty long post and I hope you enjoyed it at least a little bit, leave comments, questions, or advice, and I’ll always reply. Promise 🙂

Changes to the Blog!
August 9, 2010

Okay so wordpress recently came out with a button that you can stick on the end of each post and have people rate it. I decided to add the option for posts and comments, because I care what you, the people, have to say (: I would go out for politics with that slogan, but I’m too young..and too honest xD

Please be nice about it!

Also, this doesn’t really have to do with THIS blog, but a friend and I might be making another wordpress with advice for teenage girls on makeup, clothes, advice, and things girls care about. Mainly looks that you can wear everyday, and not get weird looks from people. I’d appreciate your support and hope you’re excited about it! With your help, we can make it big!

I’ll let you know when the site officially launches, until then, keep checking in!

PS- Exactly one month until school starts for me! What about you? Are you excited? Lemme know below!

I’ve got a Question for You <3
August 2, 2010

Question- Old 97’s

She woke from a dream
Her head was on fire
Why was he so nervous?

He took her to the park
She crossed her arms
And lowered her eyelids

Some day somebody’s gonna ask you
A question that you should say yes to
Once in your life
Maybe tonight I’ve got a question for you

She’d had no idea
Started to cry
She said in a good way

He took her by the hand
Walked her back home
They took the long way

Some day somebody’s gonna ask you
A question that you should say yes to
Once in your life
Maybe tonight I’ve got a question for you
I’ve got a question for you

❤ I love this song..

s.u.m.m.e.r.2.0.1.0
July 12, 2010

First summer of the decade and so far its been fantastic! I hope you’re able to say the same.

Okay first off, I’m absolutely loving all the free time and extra sleep and just everything. I feel so chill and relaxed and stress free, its amazing. Everyone just seems a lot happier, and the positive energy feels nice..

I’ve gotten a lot of firsts this summer, like meeting my first crossdresser, going to a wave pool, swimming with nick, etc. And its all been really fun, more of my plans include..

  • Going to my aunt’s cabin
  • Going to Chicago when my baby niece/nephew is born
  • Going to my city’s carnival
  • Putting a desk in my room/getting a new phone

So I’m sort of a busy bee, but I like being able to do what I please, school is so stressful >.<

Well I’m going to go do something xD I love you guys! Ttfn.

Summer Wishes.. (:
June 18, 2010

Okay, let me begin by saying..

TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. Yep, thats right baby. Yours truly is now part of the incoming freshman class, aka Class of 2014. I’m excited and terrified and happy and sad all at the same time..

  • Excited- I’m usually up for trying new things, so this will be the best four years of my life, SO FAR.
  • Terrified- Bigger school, stricter teachers, older kids. A lot of sophomores don’t like me.. 🙂
  • Happy- One step closer to being an adult, on my own, in the land of opportunity.
  • Sad- Old friends aren’t as close, new friends are already moving. Its losing in order to gain.

So thats what I’m anticipating from high school so far. But I can’t knock it til I try it, right?

As for summer, my fears are simple. Nick and I will drift apart, I will waste my summer doing nothing all day, I’ll end it on a bad note, etc. I just want this to be the opposite of last year. It started out basically the same as last year, as soon as the clock hit 11:39 I started to cry. The only difference was that we were at the park, and it wasn’t raining. No rain=good omen (:

The skies were blue and the future was bright, so Nick, Leigh, Josh, random people, and I all set out to go to lunch. That was kind of fun, but I’m generally not a ”big group” kind of girl, I’m at my happiest when theres four or five people lol. At the end of the day, it was just me, Nick, Leigh and Josh. We just walked around aimlessly, giving me tan lines on my forehead and arms and chest >.<

So when Nick walked me home, I made him promise that the summer wouldn’t change us. He looked me straight in the eye and said “I swear” and he can’t lie straight to my face so that gave me hope. Lets just hope he sticks to his word, and that the summer before high school will be the best one of my life.

“Our fingerprints don’t fade from the lives we touch” ❤ Leigh, Chelsie, Nick, Josh, Joel, Janelly, Emelina, Jorden, Laura, Lauren, Ciara, Jasmen, Dakota, Jillian, J, Cassie, Madison T, etc= some of the many people who I don’t want to forget, ever.

(: Happy February
February 2, 2010

Herlo (:

I can’t believe its already February. What about you? Craziness..

It’s February 1st, therefore Nick and I have been together a month now (: He asked me out at midnight on New Year’s. Did I mention that? I think I did. I dunno lol.

Chelsie, Leigh, and I hung out on Friday. We went to a coney island and Chels stole all the jelly from our table. Then she threw the packets at cars. It hit this one lady’s car and she got MAD. She threatened to jump Chels lmfaoo. Good times!

Then we had to drop Chels off at the elementary school a few blocks over since her grandma didn’t know how to get to Leigh’s. Leigh and I stayed at the playground for almost an hour.

 I called Nick and told him I didn’t feel safe, being alone like that at a playground at night. He actually came (: it was so nice.

Anyways, hopefully February will be good. I started Gym and Science extension today. I hope I don’t get raped in Gym class by the creepy teacher that Brandie is supposed to protect me from xDD

Nick’s best friend Nina switched from 7th to 8th grade. I hope she doesn’t cause problems for our relationship..

-sigh-

Peace!

 

The Right Choices
January 24, 2010

I chose Nick.

There, I said it. I broke up with Wade on Dec. 30th. Nick asked me out at midnight on New Years. Im happy now (:

I’m sorry I haven’t really had time to post, I’ve been ridiculously busy with school.

I just got done watching Teen Mom, can’t wait until the finale (:

I also like the shows The Buried Life and My Life as Liz (both on MTV). The Buried Life is very inspiring, and my life as liz is very funny and good.

Chelsie and I have gotten way closer on account of very personal reasons, too personal to post on here lol.

Well i gotta get off the computer, goodnight (:

Love Songs, Love Triangles, Lovesick.
December 30, 2009

Two is Better than One- Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Lets really break down this song, shall we?

“You came into my life and I thought ‘hey, you know, this could be something’ “

Ever since I layed eyes on Nick  and really looked at him, the first day of seventh grade, he’s been on my mind.

“Maybe its true, that I can’t live without you”

No matter what he says or does to hurt me, I keep coming back. I forgive him and move on, only to be hurt again. He’s like a magnet.

“There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life, and you’ve already got me coming undone.”

I’m only 13 years (and three quarters) old and I’ve already fallen completely in love with him. I don’t think I’ll ever honestly get over him. Sure, I did for about a week with Wade, but then I started talking to Nick again. Hell, maybe I’ll marry him someday.

“I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste. You make it hard for breathing”

I just love being around him, and his sense of humor, and his enthusiasm. I also remember his kisses, and how gentle and loving they were.

” ‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay”

I think about him a million times a day, and when I’m afraid or sad, he makes me feel safe.

“Two, is better than one”

Two is better than one ❤

So with that being said, I’m going to talk to Wade tonight. Probably going to break up with him, considering its not right to lead him on anyhow.

Guhh.

Happy New Years everyone! Hope you all had a better Christmas than I did. P.S- Remember Mark and Michelle, my brother and sister in law? Well Michelle is pregnant!!! 😀 !

Not. Single. ♥
November 26, 2009

Yup, thats right, I’ve finally found someone after 3 months of moping around because of Nick…

His name’s Wade :3 He’s greek and has long brown hair, big light brown eyes, and he’s just adorable. He’s really funny and nice, he opens doors  and cares about me. He makes me happy 🙂

I really hope things work out with us because he’s the only guy I’ve had feelings for this school year, and he helped me get over pretty boy Nick.

Happy Turkey Day everyone! Remember what you’re truly thankful for, because thats what matters most.

 

More
November 17, 2009

Sometimes I get so tired,
Just trying to find a place,
To lay my head,
I look up to the sky,
I feel the warmest light comfort me,
I’ve seen the great heights,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shores,
I know there’s something,
I know there’s something more.
I think we’re all afraid,
That we might be alone,
Alone down here,
We all want to have some faith,
At least that’s true in my case,
To just believe,
I’ve seen the great height,
Reminding me… that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something,
This world may crumble,
Into the ocean,
It could all end tonight,
I undermined you,
Then try to find you,
My only source of light,
There breathing,
I am,
Breathing,
I am,
Alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know that I’m alive,
I don’t wanna die,
I don’t wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there’s something more,
Than what we’re living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there’s something more.

More- Tyrone Wells