Love Songs, Love Triangles, Lovesick.
December 30, 2009

Two is Better than One- Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Lets really break down this song, shall we?

“You came into my life and I thought ‘hey, you know, this could be something’ “

Ever since I layed eyes on Nick  and really looked at him, the first day of seventh grade, he’s been on my mind.

“Maybe its true, that I can’t live without you”

No matter what he says or does to hurt me, I keep coming back. I forgive him and move on, only to be hurt again. He’s like a magnet.

“There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life, and you’ve already got me coming undone.”

I’m only 13 years (and three quarters) old and I’ve already fallen completely in love with him. I don’t think I’ll ever honestly get over him. Sure, I did for about a week with Wade, but then I started talking to Nick again. Hell, maybe I’ll marry him someday.

“I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste. You make it hard for breathing”

I just love being around him, and his sense of humor, and his enthusiasm. I also remember his kisses, and how gentle and loving they were.

” ‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay”

I think about him a million times a day, and when I’m afraid or sad, he makes me feel safe.

“Two, is better than one”

Two is better than one ❤

So with that being said, I’m going to talk to Wade tonight. Probably going to break up with him, considering its not right to lead him on anyhow.

Guhh.

Happy New Years everyone! Hope you all had a better Christmas than I did. P.S- Remember Mark and Michelle, my brother and sister in law? Well Michelle is pregnant!!! 😀 !

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October 4, 2009

“The changes tell just who we are…” Pages (acoustic)-There For Tomorrow

Ayooo

Spent the night at Janelly’s last night. I was kinda blah because Im still sick, but more so congested. We stayed up until like 3am just talking, it was pretty cool, shes one of my best friends :]

Today we went to the mall, which was fun but I had her take me home because my tummy was hurting D: I got some cool clothes though.

Well, I auditioned for the Dragon Report at school with Leigh. I should find out some time this week if I made it on or not, I think I have a pretty fair shot 😀

Welllll that pretty much it. Oh wait, guess who has a new girlfriend? Nick.

The chick hes going out with is named Alicia and shes ugly as hell. Blech.

Right now Im on the fence with the whole ‘Nick’ issue. I think I have an equal shot either way. So who knows…

Oh, and I saw Chelsie on Wednesday. We were suppsoed to go to the movies but she got in trouble last minute and could only visit at school. She came after school to see her old teacher so Leigh and I waited for her. I cried right when I saw her, I missed her so much. Ms. Cornell even said I was a good friend because I was crying, which was odd, because Ms. Cornell is usually mean. But I guess everyone has their moments.

-amy

Its that time of year again…
September 26, 2009

Im sick. Again. I never fail to get sick every single fall. Seriously. Right now my head hurts, my nose is stuffy, and my throat hurts.

Im chewing gum, and it sort of helps. Stupid fucking oranges and vitamins didnt even fucking help. I literally ate an orange, drank that Airborne shit thats supposed to help your immune system, took sooo many vitamins and i STILL got sick!! Tell me how the fuck that works. Its unfair, very very very unfair.

No, I dont have the swine flu.

Anyways, Nick and I aren’t really making progress. Its not looking good.

“Its the same old story, everyone knows. One heart holding on, one letting go.”

-sniffs- I should reread the Twilight saga tomoro, since Im not going anywhere. I wanted to do a bunch of stuff this weekend too. UGHHH!!!

In other news…

I signed up to be on the ‘Dragon Report’ (my schools news broadcast thing). I still have to audition next Thursday. Im excitedddd 😀

Ill be on NJHS this year again 😀 Yayyy!

-cough- Well Im exhausted. Goodnight.

-amy-

First day of school…The Review.
September 9, 2009

Okay, Im  kinda sad. Here’s why it was bad…

1. My old TEACHERS asked what happened with Nick.

2. I have like three classes with Nick.

3. I dont have lunch with any of my friends.

4. It was humid, so my hair went POOF!

5. Some one asked if Nick got me PREGNANT!!!!

6. Chelsie WOULDVE been in my cluster if she hadnt moved!!! WAHHH!!! She wouldve been in my english class. They called out her name during attendance.

Those are the main reasons. But there were some positive things.

1. I got computer class in my first semester.

2. A lot of my friends are in some of my classes.

3. I get to see Nick every day, whether he wants to or not xD

4. Not too many people asked about him.

5. I didnt trip like last year :]

Well all in all, it was okay. Itll probably be better tomorrow. Or worse…

-sniff-

Stuck in a comfortable pattern…Eh.
August 20, 2009

Im pretty much over the whole breakup issue, like it doesnt bother me anymore, I’m just not over him, like I cant stop thinking about him. I’ll get over it eventually though…always do -sigh-.

My life is getting boring, my friends feel that Im sane and emotionally stable enough to be left alone by now. So thats what theyre doing -_-. Theyre moving on with their busy lives while I sit at home, waiting for something interesting to happen.

I cant wait for school. Thats what I need in my life, a routine that keeps me occupied, not stuck in my room listening to music all day. School for me starts September 9th. Yay :] 3 weeks exactly.

I kinda want to join track in 8th grade, for like a hobby. A lot of my friends were in track in 7th grade, and I went to all of the at-home meets because Nick was on the team, and it looked like fun. Plus, Im kinda fast :] and my family will get off my back about playing sports.

Well I’m bored…Lets do a profile thingy xD

Time- 9:28pm EST on Aug 19th.

Eating- Nothing, well…air.

Drinking- Nothing.

Listening to- My Paper Heart- All American Rejects

Wearing- Blue tee shirt, Adidas shorts.

Feeling- Bored, exhausted, content.

Loving- Nick kinda, and my friends :] oh, and music.

Hating-Hmm…Nothing I can think of atm.

Wanting- Someone to text/IM/call/fall in love with -sheepish grin-, something to drink.

-Amy |:D|

P.S- Right after I typed the ‘wanting’ thing, someone texted me xD Nick best friend, Jesseth.  That was cool 😀

P.S.S- NOW NICKS IMING ME AND HE HASNT EVEN TALKED TO ME IN 2 WEEKS!!! WTH!!!!!! -tries to slow pounding heart-

Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.