Stay young <3
October 9, 2009

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine

Two is Better Than One <33
September 21, 2009

Well…I have some good news, some sort of sad news, and some more sad news.

Ill tell you the  good news first ^^

Sam and Nick broke up! Yes! Today! She told him she doesnt love him anymore, stupid hoe. What I wouldnt give to pound her stupid face in…

Anyways, heres the sad news. I dont think were going to get back together. I mean, you cant really say never, because anything is possible. But the odds are against us. So yeah, i guess we’ll remain friends forever.

And the moderately sad news, Chelsie and Cullen broke up :[ Cullen said it was because they never saw eachother, which i guess is understandable.

-sigh- teenage love is difficult. very very difficult.

In other news, heres my music CD wishlist for this fall…

Cant Stop Wont Stop- The Maine

Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls

Boys Like Girls

and…Avril Lavigne’s new CD, not sure what its called…

Also, Im saving up to rent an acoustic guitar. So far the only person Ive told is Wade, and thats it. I want to keep it a secret to I can surprise people :] Well…I guess its not really a secret anymore, since I just put it on the internet…Oh well ^.^

Luff yew ❤

P.S- You MUST listen to ‘Two is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls’ Its such a good song, but its sad.

Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.

*pokes* I’m sorry :'(
July 2, 2009

I’m very sorry I havent posted in forever, I’ve been busy doing absolutely nothing.

Summer has been boring, I miss my best friend Chelsie, and I miss Nick. School is way better than this lol.

Yesterday was my dads birthday. Him, my aunt, and I went to dinner. Then we went to her house and played a very long game of Uno, so long that no one won, we just kinda gave up. Then we had some of the cake I baked for my dad, it was yummy ^^

Still obsessed with Twilight of course, can’t wait for New Moon to come out 😀

The most recent movies I’ve seen are Gran Torino and Transformers 2. Transformers was awesome (duh) definitely worth seeing. Gran Torino was good too, suprise ending 😆

Michael Jackson died, and I’m kind of on the fence with that. I liked his music, but there was the whole child molestor thing.

Kevin Jonas got engaged, and even though every stereotypically “normal” teenage girl is devasted, I really don’t care.

Well,I’ll attempt to post more, but if I don’t, please don’t shoot me :]

I LOVE YOU!!!

~amy