Freshman Year: One Trimester Down, Two to Go
December 3, 2010

Excuses, excuses, I know..

I probably wouldn’t be typing this if I wasn’t sick and home from school today.. High school has been going well, for those interested. I enjoyed the classes I had, but as for the teachers, they are a whole different story.

A lot of the teachers are in it solely for the money. One teacher I had told my friend to “shut the hell up” (I swear, she said that) and “Why should I stay after to help students? I don’t get paid for it” She’s retiring in a couple years, and lets just say, no one will miss her. When one of her former students is her doctor, and she’s having some kind of major surgery, she’ll be sorry…

Thankfully, though, there’s that small handful of teachers left that actually care about their students and the kind of education they get, the teachers that ask how you’re doing and genuinely care, who give great advice and feel like a second mom ♥

I haven’t made too many new friends, more-so acquaintences and people I’ll talk to in class. My current classes are decent so far, its hard to really tell since the second trimester just started.

Blah. Freshmen year is a drag.

In my spare time, I hang out with Nick (boyfriend of two-ish years), go to church, and try to spend time with friends..well..the friends I haven’t lost :/ but I’m not going to burden anyone with that story.

I feel like life is becoming a cycle..In the summer, everything drifts along, and towards the end of it, a lot takes a turn for the worst. In the fall, I lose track of my identity and feel pretty useless. In the winter, things perk up, and relationships rebuild, and everything seems to have a spark to it. Then, in spring, everything is light and happy and busy.

Hopefully this isn’t how it will always be.

Right now, I’ve taken an interest in acting, writing, and cooking. Maybe when I get my braces off, I’ll try modeling. The worst they can say is no, right? I have a few homecoming pictures, I’ll put those up eventually 🙂

Well, this is a pretty long post and I hope you enjoyed it at least a little bit, leave comments, questions, or advice, and I’ll always reply. Promise 🙂

Alls unfair in love and war…
October 26, 2009

You’d think I’d be smarter than this, but you’re sadly mistaken.

Alright it started, what, a week or so ago? Idk, it feels like a week ago. I’m not sure.

Anyhow, I was hangin out with Janelly like normal right, and then Nick came over. He was being normal towards me (it was the day he and that Alicia chick broke up) and then Janelly had to go in and get something. Well when she left (i was sitting next to him) he kissed me in a suprise attack.

I’m all like 😮 but I kissed him back, then he stopped kissing me and was like ‘This doesn’t mean we’re dating’ and I’m like ‘okay’. So then he kissed me again, then stopped, then he started making out with me.

All this started and ended in about five minutes.

Then I said I had to leave so Janelly made him leave too. Naturally, he walked me home. So he kissed me, then kissed me, then kissed me AGAIN but this time he said…

‘Friends with benefits? Yes? No?’ and my smart self said ‘Yes’. Then we got to the fence right before ours paths went in separate directions. He kissed me goodbye, and I just walked home.

I felt really bad about that, because to me ‘friends with benefits’ means using someone for a physical relationship. I told him I felt like i was being used and that i was only an option and his EXACT words were…

‘Im not using you for kisses, because that sounds retarded. However you are just an option, but that isnt necessarily a bad thing, considering it means you have a chance.’

That somehow changed my mind, so I decided to keep things the way they were. Plus, I got free kisses ^.^

Wellllll…now my story comes to today. I went over Janelly’s and he said he would come over if I came to get him. I told him to meet me halfway, so he did. When he saw me, he gave me a tiny peck on the lips and whispered ‘thats all you get’ and we walked. I was kind of disappointed.

Anyways, when we got to Janelly’s, he was apparently in some kind of asshole mood, because he was pissing me off nonstop, like just talking about things that he normally wouldn’t over texts (other girls and shit like that) but me being the quiet girl I am, didn’t say anything about it.

Then, he ditched Janelly and I for Kim and Nina (hoes.)

Whatever, I don’t even want to talk to him right now, but I know I’ll end up doing it anyways, because self-destroyal is my latest hobby.

:/

‘Give me therapy, I’m a walking travesty, but I’m smiling at everything.’

Stay young <3
October 9, 2009

“Being able to act like a tard with you means the world to me”

I love my friends. Love them to death. I cant believe how fast time is going, its so freaky and insane. I love life right now, even though Nick is being a very confused young boy. I dont really care right now, because life goes by too fast to take it slow. Im so sentimental and Im so overwhelmed.

Having a slight identity crisis, like I feel the need to dye my hair different colors and just change, which is probably normal. But it’ll pass. When I go back in a couple months and read through my archives, I’ll be fine. Who knows, so much will have changed by then probably.

10.10.08, first day Nick and I went out the first time.

10.17.08 first time i broke up with him

12.16.08 we went out the second time, and i fell in utter and complete love.

It will be exactly a year since we went out the first time this coming Saturday.

So much has changed… 

I remember the first time I layed eyes on him ever in fifth grade. He was the new kid sitting at lunch playing his Gameboy, isolating himself from the world. I thought “Loser”. Too bad I didnt know that so-called loser would be the love of my life today who I kissed and he cheated on me and broke my heart.

So sad.

“and the people in the photographs look happier than you are…”

We all Roll Along- The Maine

Two is Better Than One <33
September 21, 2009

Well…I have some good news, some sort of sad news, and some more sad news.

Ill tell you the  good news first ^^

Sam and Nick broke up! Yes! Today! She told him she doesnt love him anymore, stupid hoe. What I wouldnt give to pound her stupid face in…

Anyways, heres the sad news. I dont think were going to get back together. I mean, you cant really say never, because anything is possible. But the odds are against us. So yeah, i guess we’ll remain friends forever.

And the moderately sad news, Chelsie and Cullen broke up :[ Cullen said it was because they never saw eachother, which i guess is understandable.

-sigh- teenage love is difficult. very very difficult.

In other news, heres my music CD wishlist for this fall…

Cant Stop Wont Stop- The Maine

Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls

Boys Like Girls

and…Avril Lavigne’s new CD, not sure what its called…

Also, Im saving up to rent an acoustic guitar. So far the only person Ive told is Wade, and thats it. I want to keep it a secret to I can surprise people :] Well…I guess its not really a secret anymore, since I just put it on the internet…Oh well ^.^

Luff yew ❤

P.S- You MUST listen to ‘Two is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls’ Its such a good song, but its sad.

Party like a ROCKSTAR!!!
September 5, 2009

W00t parents arent home, no i promise im not having a wild party xD just a bunch of random dancing frenzies in my underwear. Fun!!! Less than 4 days until school. Are you as sad as I am? Leave your comment below, and lemme know :] Hey that rhymed…

P.S- Liquor=cough syrup. Nuff said.

Stuck in a comfortable pattern…Eh.
August 20, 2009

Im pretty much over the whole breakup issue, like it doesnt bother me anymore, I’m just not over him, like I cant stop thinking about him. I’ll get over it eventually though…always do -sigh-.

My life is getting boring, my friends feel that Im sane and emotionally stable enough to be left alone by now. So thats what theyre doing -_-. Theyre moving on with their busy lives while I sit at home, waiting for something interesting to happen.

I cant wait for school. Thats what I need in my life, a routine that keeps me occupied, not stuck in my room listening to music all day. School for me starts September 9th. Yay :] 3 weeks exactly.

I kinda want to join track in 8th grade, for like a hobby. A lot of my friends were in track in 7th grade, and I went to all of the at-home meets because Nick was on the team, and it looked like fun. Plus, Im kinda fast :] and my family will get off my back about playing sports.

Well I’m bored…Lets do a profile thingy xD

Time- 9:28pm EST on Aug 19th.

Eating- Nothing, well…air.

Drinking- Nothing.

Listening to- My Paper Heart- All American Rejects

Wearing- Blue tee shirt, Adidas shorts.

Feeling- Bored, exhausted, content.

Loving- Nick kinda, and my friends :] oh, and music.

Hating-Hmm…Nothing I can think of atm.

Wanting- Someone to text/IM/call/fall in love with -sheepish grin-, something to drink.

-Amy |:D|

P.S- Right after I typed the ‘wanting’ thing, someone texted me xD Nick best friend, Jesseth.  That was cool 😀

P.S.S- NOW NICKS IMING ME AND HE HASNT EVEN TALKED TO ME IN 2 WEEKS!!! WTH!!!!!! -tries to slow pounding heart-

Heels Over Head ^^
February 17, 2009

Kk back from skool…anywhoooo…

Yesterday we had the day off so tht was fun. I went over my frend jessie’s house while ashley was there. we invited nick over and watched tv til her mom got home.  when her mom did get home, the 4 of us walked to tim hortons and got coffee. THEN we walked to starbucks and got coffee. i was BUZZED. I ran along the freeway with jessie and that was fun. then we went back to jessies and went in her room. me and nick made out laying down on her bed ^^ then we were forced to go to cvs for cookies.

how weird lol. but tht was AWESOME!!!

today was good too. nick came over and gave me my vday gift (a teddybear tht smells like vurt ((his cologne)) ) and i gave him the mints 😀

well im tired. gunna go play keyboard. PEACE!!

~amy wuz hurr~

P.S— Currently obsessed with…

Boys Like Girls (hero/heroine) and eyeliner.

 

Countdown to my BIRTHDAY!
February 4, 2009

Yeppers, it’s almost that time of year AGAIN! but this years special cuz march 7th…

I’ll be 13!!

Thats right, a teenager 😮 im so excited.

Ive been thinking about stuff to ask for…I surfed the web today looking. Here r my results:

Rainbow converse (converse.com)

white rose w/ crystals hair clip (michelleroydesigns.com)

scented nail polish (claires.com)

4th gen. iPod nano skins (istyles.com or ifroz.com)

LOVE IT!

Most of u know what i like, so any ideas?

~amy wuz hurr~

P.S- I was born at 11:11am on March 7th. 7-11 😆 no wonder why i like slurpees…