Stuck in a comfortable pattern…Eh.
August 20, 2009

Im pretty much over the whole breakup issue, like it doesnt bother me anymore, I’m just not over him, like I cant stop thinking about him. I’ll get over it eventually though…always do -sigh-.

My life is getting boring, my friends feel that Im sane and emotionally stable enough to be left alone by now. So thats what theyre doing -_-. Theyre moving on with their busy lives while I sit at home, waiting for something interesting to happen.

I cant wait for school. Thats what I need in my life, a routine that keeps me occupied, not stuck in my room listening to music all day. School for me starts September 9th. Yay :] 3 weeks exactly.

I kinda want to join track in 8th grade, for like a hobby. A lot of my friends were in track in 7th grade, and I went to all of the at-home meets because Nick was on the team, and it looked like fun. Plus, Im kinda fast :] and my family will get off my back about playing sports.

Well I’m bored…Lets do a profile thingy xD

Time- 9:28pm EST on Aug 19th.

Eating- Nothing, well…air.

Drinking- Nothing.

Listening to- My Paper Heart- All American Rejects

Wearing- Blue tee shirt, Adidas shorts.

Feeling- Bored, exhausted, content.

Loving- Nick kinda, and my friends :] oh, and music.

Hating-Hmm…Nothing I can think of atm.

Wanting- Someone to text/IM/call/fall in love with -sheepish grin-, something to drink.

-Amy |:D|

P.S- Right after I typed the ‘wanting’ thing, someone texted me xD Nick best friend, Jesseth.  That was cool 😀

P.S.S- NOW NICKS IMING ME AND HE HASNT EVEN TALKED TO ME IN 2 WEEKS!!! WTH!!!!!! -tries to slow pounding heart-

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Stuck in between “You Belong with Me” and “Goodbye”
August 4, 2009

AHHH!!! Nick and I broke up. I hate him. So much. Here’s how it when, play by play.

Wednesday-Hung out with Ashley, went by Nick’s house. He came out, and accidentally hit me in the head with his guitar, I said ‘ow, that hurt’ he said ‘thats nice’ (I know, youre thinking, ‘douchebag’, so was I) so I just stayed quiet and played guitar while him and Ashley talked. Then he gave Ashley one of his shirts and I asked if I could have one and he said no (WHAT THE FUCK!)

So we left and Ashley asked why I was so quiet then I said I felt like the end of Nick and I was coming, then she said she was texting him with lillian and lillian asked how things were going and he said “okay but im gunna break up with her soon so i can flirt with hot girls” (No fucking joke.) I decided I needed to end it.

Wednesday night- Asked nick if he loved me, and he said he didnt know. That just made my decision for me right there.

Thursday- Yanesa hid behind the bushes while Nick was there and we broke up. He wasnt sad. He deleted every pic of me off his phone while I was there, changed his text signature to ‘single’ and even talked to me about his “options” (chicks he wants to hit on) When he left, Yanesa held me when I cried.

Friday- Spent that day with Yanesa, trying to get over him.

Saturday- Nick decided to text me all day, and I was sad, so he told me I needed to move on and I told him it had only been 2 days, and hes like ‘whatever, let summer and life in general pass you by, youre not my problem anymore, goodnight’

Sunday- Almost got jumped. By Taylor (for those of you who dont know, shes the one Nick cheated on me with.) and a 17 year old chick. I told nick it was his fault and he said he hated me and didnt want to talk to me anymore. Called me later that night, told me he was sorry, that he was just pissed, and started talking about girls he liked and flirted with and who he had a chance with, who he didnt. When he hung up, I cried. I texted Gary and Cullen (my “big brothers” xD) and they each gave me pep talk. Love them both :]

Monday (today)- Nick called me and woke me up this morning to tell me he needed a life. Then I hung out with Jenna from 2-6. On the way back home, Nick and Sam (Cullen’s girlfriend) were walking together. Sam gave me a hug…Nick told me not to touch him.

So later tonight if Nick doesnt call me, first thing tomoro, I’m calling him and going off on his egotistic ass. If he wants to be my friend, treat me like a person, not a dog. He needs to die.

Then hard thing is, deep down, I still love him, and unlike him, I never stopped loving him. The first 5 months of our relationship were awesome. Thats the nick I miss.

So that explains the title- Stuck in between “You Belong with Me- Taylor Swift” and “Goodbye-Kristina DeBarge”

FML.

Updates on…EVERYTHING -insert theme music here-
July 28, 2009

Okay I shall now update you on every single solitary aspect of my 13 year old life.

ME- I’m doing pretty good. Just got done scratching my arm *crowd stares in total amazement* I woke up about an hour ago. Woke up originally at 9 to go rollerblade with jessica but her back hurts so were going to change that to tomoro.

Nick- Nick’s dad just came back after 3 weeks of being on the road for work, idk how he feels about that though. His phone is kind of messed up at the moment because he geniusly texted right when he got out of the shower and his hands were wet.

Blake (sanity)- Blake had knee surgery a while ago, and recently he fell at Target because someone decided to paint the ground and he slipped on his krutches. Wth? So we are planning to sue target in the near future (I called all the converse stuff :])

Chelsie- Her lice is gone (finally) and she’s “taking a break” from her man, Jesseth, for a while. We might go to our city’s festival together 😀

Yanesa- Yanesa has been good. She spent the night on the 17th and we talked for the whole night. She also “took a break” from her man, Antoine.

Me playing keyboard- I’ve learned these songs: For Elise, Right Here Waiting for You, Welcome to the Black Parade, the intro to It Ends Tonight. I’m doing good :]

School- As far as I know, school starts september 9th. Still not sure what cluster I’m in though. Can’t wait for 8th grade.

Thats pretty much it I think lol. If I think of more, I’ll edit this later.